Thursday, 13 August 2009
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I believe….BUT
Why is that I trust God and believe Him, but then doubt Him? I think this is a common struggle. We proclaim His goodness and rely on Him, but then we try to “control” things that are really outside of our control.
Here’s what I mean. I applied for the open teaching position at BNL that became vacant when Nathan Woodward took the Mitchell Jr. High Asst. Principal position. This happened last Friday. I spoke with Mr. Conner that day and filled out the online application. I spent Saturday fasting and praying about the position. (I wanted to express to God and my heart that I understand that the job, like food, is only possible through Him.) Monday morning I dropped off my resume’ and philosophy of education to Mr. Conner personally. I also asked a Dana Sowders to drop in a good word for me. I spent the rest of the day praying about it.
Since that time, I have spent a LOT of time praying and thinking and texting and asking about the position. Here’s my question…If I REALLY believed and trusted God was Sovereign and would do what is best, would I be continually doing this stuff? Would I have to feel compelled to text Dana to find out if she had heard anything? Would I continually be praying about it?
Or would I simply trust that my Daddy would do what was best for me? Wouldn’t I just take comfort in His plan and not try to finagle, worry, manipulate the system, spend time thinking about it. I think this is what true belief would look like. I can’t be praying and giving things to God and then saying, “BUT”. I can’t give them away and then try to control them. I’m not capable to control it anyway.
I’m tired of saying, “I believe…but.” It’s time to simply believe. It’s time to take God at His word- that He loves me, that His plans are perfect, that His will is untouched, that His presence is unchanging, that He is my Daddy.
Here’s the Troy application of Mark 9:14-27
A man named Troy hollered to Jesus, “I brought my career and BNL position to you but I haven’t heard anything. Why is this?”
“O unbelieving child," Jesus replied, "how long shall I stay with you? How long shall I put up with you? Bring the job to me."
So Troy once again brought the worry and fear about the job to Jesus.
Jesus asked, “How long have you been looking for a job, Troy?”
“For a long time. I have always had a passion to work with teens and show them love. If you can lead me to the right position, I will give you praise and glory.”
“If I can?!?!?!?” Jesus said. “Everything is possible for him who believes.”
Troy answered, “I do believe. Help my unbelief.”
What do you have unbelief about? What do you try to control?
Your job.
Your money.
Your spouse.
Your child.
Your health.
Your time.
Your __________.
It’s all God’s. The very breath I just took…that you just took.
May I believe. May you believe. May God help our unbelief!
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